Eyes Wide Open

The Secrets We Hide

By Tiffany Franklin 

Hidden in our lives are stories left untold 
of the things we didn't want them to know, 
but once you tell somebody 
and make your feelings known, 
the struggle will be over 
and you'll finally be home.

A part of me is so afraid to look at what is hurting me. 

A part that would rather escape than face it.  

A part of me is so afraid because the very nature of waking up is to be aware, to be accountable for the healing of my life.  

Once I begin to see who I truly am I will never be able to unsee again. 

I am afraid because nobody but me will have to make this effort. 

And yet I am serving no one by staying asleep, not one single person. 

A part of me knows when caught in anger and pain (again) I will have to ask myself is this really worth my misery.  

Is the price I’m paying worth my one precious life? 

I’m afraid, because that part of me knows the fingers I have been pointing will be pointing back at me. The angry eyes are my eyes. My responsibility. 

A part of me is afraid to see that I will be asked to let go. I’ve stepped back from that uncertainty so often that it’s become hard to hear the truth of that voice. But it keeps calling. The uncertainty is a necessary part of the journey, this divide is not one I can traverse in full control. And that is so frightening. And yet I have to travel across this divide to uncover who I truly am. And in awaking, I will have to perpetually move forward. There will be no returning to my false refuges once I step into that uncertainty.

A part of me knows this. 

And yet it calls to me in all of my discontent and gently shows me signs of life on the other side.  

Can you hear that small voice inside of you telling you there is more to this life than what you have been choosing? Can you hear the voice inside of you that has been gently guiding you to your heart all along? Can you hear the voice telling you that when you are ready you are welcome to join them in the irresistible truth of your beauty? 

It is here. If you listen closely. Behind the dense hurt and bondage lives another part of you, standing tall, feet planted strongly, earth rejoicing around those feet. Heart loud and clear and resolute.

Eyes wide open. 

There inside of you a wondrous part of you is calling you to step into your great unbounded potential. Freedom and abundance. Belonging. Home. 

Any change or forgiveness you have experienced in your life is not because someone else made you let go. It was because you chose to.  So you know the power is yours. As much as you dislike that truth. The choice IS yours, as much as you cling to your excuses.

Do not worry yourself in how you will ultimately arrive at your freedom, because it is the work of magic and miracle. All you must worry yourself with is listening to the part of you that is not interested in staying in suffering any longer.  

Listen to the part of you that already knows what it must do to arrive at the door of your awakening.  

You are alive, longing to be fully present in your one precious life. You are not afraid. You are ready.  

To be accountable.  

To be wholly responsible for your life. To drop the notion that you are owed anything from this life, and to realise that instead….you owe it to yourself. 

Part of you knows this as truth.  

—
Andrew.